University: The Theme Park of Sin
The more doors of sin you open the more you will have to close). If you walk 100 miles in the wrong direction...then do a 180 degree turn, you will be waking in the correct direction...But you will still have 100 miles to walk to get back the place you made the wrong turn.
I started University with GOOD intentions. All the people I lived with knew I wasn't a partaker in usual happenings of fresher's week and I managed for most of my first year to not entangle myself in snares that routinely passed my way.
However, I had no idea that the one time I let my guard down that I would be caught up into a lifestyle that gripped me and put me on a short road to hell.
If there was a plane ride to hell: I felt like I would have been the 3rd co-pilot.
I became addicted to the rollercoaster life, exhilarating highs and unbearable lows. Like a fiend I always looked for my next high. Because of the way I grew up I knew all I was doing and pursuing was wrong and had no long term future, but the pleasures of the world had me in vice grip, and no amount of strength or courage I could muster could help me back to God.
I could not stay too long in reality; I had to find things to take me out of my true state of mind and reasoning because the reality of my life was too much to bear. I would settle on the fact that I was going to hell, and that was what I deserved for my abhorrent behaviour. I had gone too far and there was too much obstacles issues and questions I had regarding life and the church for me to be saved.
I hated of the instability of this rollercoaster, but doing better is always easier said than done. This life destroyed all godly perspective I once had. My life was becoming like a soap opera, frequent encounters with the police, break downs, court dates, and one drama after the next, I was literally losing my mind. The final year of university culminated in me being kicked off Campus and being told not come back until my final exams.
(AMP) 8 And so, since they did not see fit to acknowledge God or approve of Him or consider Him worth the knowing, God gave them over to a base and condemned mind to do things not proper or decent but loathsome,
29 Until they were filled (permeated and saturated) with every kind of unrighteousness, iniquity, grasping and covetous greed, and malice. [They were] full of envy and jealousy, murder, strife, deceit and treachery, ill will and cruel ways. [They were] secret backbiters and gossipers,
30 Slanderers, hateful to and hating God, full of insolence, arrogance, [and] boasting; inventors of new forms of evil, disobedient and undutiful to parents.
31 [They were] without understanding, conscienceless and faithless, heartless and loveless [and] merciless.
32 Though they are fully aware of God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve to die, they not only do them themselves but approve and applaud others who practice them.
My life was a complete mess, yet I felt I could not turn to God. My faith had been almost completely eradicated. I believed that Hell was on Earth and that Joy and Peace were not achievable on whilst on the Earth. I told a friend of mine, that the day I came to church and no longer felt convicted to change my lifestyle, that, that would be the confirmation that the game was up for me.
(AMP)Hebrews6 For the Lord corrects and disciplines everyone whom He loves, and He punishes, even scourges, every son whom He accepts and welcomes to His heart and cherishes.
7 You must submit to and endure [correction] for discipline; God is dealing with you as with sons. For what son is there whom his father does not [thus] train and correct and discipline?
8 Now if you are exempt from correction and left without discipline in which all [of God's children] share, then you are illegitimate offspring and not true sons [at all].
All to Jesus I Surrender:
It is with my heart I implore you to not enter in the path of unrighteousness or if you are on it, to turn back now, we serve a gracious and merciful God. But we do not know the day or the hour where our soul will be required. I thank God he saved me when he did, I thank him that whilst like brother Paul I felt like the chief of all sinners (considering my upbringing) that I had an experience of God as a child which served as a witness against me. It also prevented me from delving any further into everything that was available and offered to me, because there are some things I know there would have been no comeback from (despite my enjoyment of the pleasures of sin, I always desired to give it up and follow the true and living God).
But I thank God that I like brother Paul, I obtained mercy for the reason that in me, as the foremost [of sinners], Jesus Christ might show forth and display all His perfect long-suffering and patience for an example to [encourage] those who would thereafter believe on Him for [the gaining of] eternal life.
1st Timothy 1:16 AMP
Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy.
Jude 1.24 AMP
Now to the King of eternity, incorruptible and immortal, invisible, the only God, be honour and glory forever and ever (to the ages of ages). Amen
1st Timothy 1:17 AMP
Nobody leaves University in the same condition they entered...what condition will you leave in?